Breaking the Bamboo Ceiling and feeling my anger

This Asian Woman is furious as she breaks the bamboo ceiling

I used to write and speak often about Asian-Australian representation on panels with national and global reach, in education and pop culture publications and even on ABC Radio. It was an important part of my work to raise awareness to the lack of Asian representation in senior leadership in different areas. Something which I still feel strongly about.

In my journey of letting go and making space to create the life that I desire, I have moved my focus away from this as I feel my heart calling me to focus more on being the role model of creating the life that I desire. And in turn, showing what's possible for humanity and to my Asian sisters and brothers that we can live outside of the mainstream lifestyle, without being overt about it.

This in itself is rebelling against the norm of breaking the bamboo ceiling* I'm breaking the bamboo ceiling by living an unconventional life - as Courage & Transformation Coach, Digital Nomad, creating heart-centered spaces and bringing in more esoteric inspirations into my work. of FEELING. MOVEMENT.

I am often the only Asian in personal growth/spiritual/energetic/body movement spaces. In a world where I explore my growth, expansion and healing, and where I feel safe. I also my difference and pain as I feel I need to bring extra courage to share any of my lived experiences.

As I let go of my old identity...

* My mind swirling with angry thoughts as the old friends and colleagues who used to support me have gone silent.

* My heart is breaking as I move away from the work I was so passionate about

* My ego is letting go of the identity that had created such a powerful platform to be heard, seen and felt - for who I am as an Asian Woman.

In creating the life that I desire, I am painfully letting go parts of me that have served me. I haven't consciously acknowledged this pain until now. I'm digging deep into my courage well to express my anger and vulnerability to the same friends who might be reading this.

This is part of the process of creating the life that I deeply desire. To live life on my terms. I am making space for more of what I want to bring in.

Am I alone on this journey?

* the bamboo ceiling typically refers to the invisible barrier that prevents Asians living outside of Asia from advancing into senior leadership positions, or into 'visible' roles in areas such as film and the arts