Vulnerability - I surrendered and crumbled

I took on too much - new website, collateral, content writing, project collaborations, finances, starting out as a new Biodanza Facilitator, as well as a massive Biodanza Minotaur weekend as part of my personal develpment all before another 700km drive...

I was fighting not to get sick. Too scared to surrender and to trust my body.

Until I turned on my camera as a participant for my fortnightly coaching group and I crumbled. I cried and I sobbed. I allowed myself to drop into my feminine energy of feeling, expressing, sounds and chaos. The group witnessed and held me.

I felt raw
I felt naked
I felt waves of energy move through me

I surrendered
Into the exhaustion of being courageous constantly
Into the exhaustion of doing everything myself

Through the chaos, I found clarity

The clarity to postpone my trip
To cancel meetings
To postpone project collaborations
While feeling my fear of being seen as "not reliable" "not professional"

I could have burnt out (again)
But I chose not to.
My body supported me.

It is by surrendering into my vulnerabilities,
of allowing myself to crumble
of dropping into my fears

That I can connect with my courage.

Without vulnerability, there is no courage.

How far do you drop into your vulnerability?